This is What Studying Looks Like

Or not....

I am scheduled to take my PHR Exam tomorrow morning and my confidence is certainly a little shaky at this moment. I took the day off from work to get some final studying in, and after 6 or so hours of studying I am in a need of a quick little break.

Bullet points seem like the only way I can think right now ( thanks to my copious amounts of reading notes) so here are some bullets of thoughts.

- Music dictates so much of my mood and thoughts. A little country like this afternoon and I am day dreaming of Idaho and how much longer till I can live somewhere that feels more like home. Hopefully passing this test will open the doors for me to new jobs, and in somewhere were I don't feel so disjointed all the time.

- It is hard to not get disappointed by people, and I undoubtedly know I do my fair share of disappointing people. There are just some things that hurt. A emotional slap across your face when a friend treats you a certain way...ya know what I mean? I always try to hope that things can be mended and I try to keep in mind that relations, of all kinds, are riddled with let downs, a need for hard work and commitment to each other.

  - Some funny ( and true) thoughts on why one is not married here.

In all seriousness... This is something I like from Tracy's article:

"The bottom line is that marriage is just a long-term opportunity to practice loving someone even when they don't deserve it. Because most of the time, your messy, farting, macaroni-and-cheese eating man will not be doing what you want him to. But as you give him love anyway -- because you have made up your mind to transform yourself into a person who is practicing being kind, deep, virtuous, truthful, giving, and most of all, accepting of your own dear self -- you will find that you will experience the very thing you wanted all along:

Love."

- I am seeing some long time family friends who are in DC visiting and I am excited to be surrounded by familiar people the night before I take this beast of a test! Wish me luck! I'm back to the books and the pages and pages of bulleted notes.