Friday, February 26, 2010
This isn't written by Emily from the blog mentioned above, but the link she has posted for the write of this is broken...I wish I could give due credit as I think this is wonderful.
WHAT I WOULD TELL THEM:
(If I knew what to say.)
You are a miracle.
And I have to love you this fiercely: So that you can feel it even after you leave for school, or even while you are asleep, or even after your childhood becomes a memory.
You’ll forget all this when you grow up.
But it’s okay.
Being a mother means having your heart broken.
And it means loving and losing and falling apart and coming back together.
And it’s the best there is.
And also, sometimes, the worst.
Sometimes you won’t have anyone to talk to.
Sometimes you’ll wonder if you’ve forgotten who you are.
But you must remember this: What you’re doing matters.
And you have to be brave with your life so that others can be brave with theirs.
And nurturing the good in this world is nothing short of a privilege.
That’s why I have to love you this way.
So I can give what I have to you.
So that you can carry it in your body and pass it on.
I have watched you sleep.
I’ve kissed you a million times.
And I know something that you don’t, yet:
You are writing the story of your only life every single minute of every day.
And my greatest hope for you, sweet child, is that I can teach you how to write a good one.
The parts highlighted really pull at my heart. I can't tell you the times I have woken up (and gone to bed) and wonder if I have any idea who I am, or if I have forgotten. The more and more I have these thoughts the more and more I have pushed myself to define what makes me...me. Which also requires me to be brave. It is hard to go out into the world and grow up. If I panic about being on the other side of the country, away from my family, my nephew, my friends, I am sure everyone else feels the effects of that. Which benefits no one involved. "You must remember this: what you are doing matters"are such beautiful words. And while I instantly jumped to relating these to my work, as I sit here pondering these beautiful words I see more now that what I am doing isn't just work, but it is who am I am, day in and day out. How I treat others. How I behave in my relationships. How I represent my family. How I love. How I deal with my emotions. What I do with myself each and every minute. But it all matters. It all is inextricably linked to others, and that is a powerful thing to remember.
I am sure I have no idea the overwhelming sense of love that comes with having a child. I am overwhelmed with the love I have for my nephew, and he isn't even my kid! But I am sure I would tell my kids that no matter what anyone says or does or makes them feel they are always loved and were made to be perfect in their own right. I'd also tell them about how tiny they were, since that seems to boggle my mind. Tiny feet and tiny hands that grow up and do amazing things. What would/do you tell your kids?
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
- Bode Sucked. (sorry Bode....I still LOVE you)
- Figure Skating tonight...Olympic highlight
- The Bachelor finale is this coming Monday. I am anxious. If Jake picks Vienna...I am becoming a nun.
- I went to a networking event last night. Surprisingly AWESOME.
- Trader Joe's Mac n' Cheese= Bachelorette Status is now at an all time high
- Three loads of laundry the other night and I STILL have more to go. I am going to go bankrupt just paying to wash my clothes! $3 a load to wash and dry makes me want to do it up college frat guy style and see how many times I can wear one sweatshirt. Not really. But seriously city living really sucks sometimes.
- Outfit yesterday=magic. Multiple compliments and date offers. Fab-U-lous.
- Is it normal to be resentful towards your Blackberry when you want an iPhone, but feel guilty that you want something so frbolous? Like seriously do need to cart the internet around and be disconnected from mankind 24/7? Absolutely. Screw you society for making me feel inferior about my BB (angry fist shake). Pathetic.
- Lindsey Vonn? Men? Really? She is just not-that-hot. Get over the cheek bones, smile, and atheltisism already. Am I proud she won gold? Yes. Do you need to wear a swim suit? No! You are a ski racer! And Lindsey, be a good friend and steal Mancuso's tiara. I understand the rivalary of wanting to be the best, but letting a teammate walk around wearing her junior high homecoming tiara that she probably didn't win, but bought to wear to homecoming anyways to make her feel pretty is just mean. She will thank you later in life Lindsey. Trust me on this one.
Alright and one more gem for you. (Compliments of a guest contributor! Welcome CWF (Coworkerfriend) Sam)
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
Photo courtesy: MarthaStewart.com
Minus the tomatoes (substitute green beans with garlic). Yes that is right, skirt team in a Balsamic dressing with poltena. I must say my polenta turned out great and the steak...so good!
I found the recipe courtesy of Martha and if you are craving a good red meat dish (I was needing some iron apparently) this is fairly easy and seems kind of hard to really mess up. The only this is when you are reducing your balsamic...brace yourself. The smell is a bit overwhelming, but hang in there because once reduced...it is a savory sauce!
There was also some of this:
photo courtesy of epsion
And then there was this for dessert
Photo courtesy the Daily Scoop
It was quite the meal and makes me wish I could cook more. I think I am intimidated by cooking things that are 1)not baked goods 2) out of a box 3) in my freezer. But honestly usually when I do attempt some sort of cooking effort, this usually go pretty well. Now I just need a bit bigger kitchen. *Le sigh* the day when I own my own place will be so awesome...if even just for the bathroom and kitchen (two of the most important features in a house for me).
I am thinking there will need to be some of these made at some point...maybe if someone throws and opening day party again for the Nats I will bring some of these along:
Photo courtesy of MarthStewart.com
I love soft pretzels so i am sure I would devour these!
Also has anyone made Marshmallows before? This is high on my priority list to make before spring (they seem like a winter thing to make) but some good hot cocoa and some homemade marshmallows just seem like a luxury I would enjoy.
Monday, February 22, 2010
Rocking skee ball at Long Beach
Stephanie starting to perfect her love ballad for Phil.
Sunday, February 21, 2010
As for Taylor I know all her songs are based off real guys and her whole reflection of "growing up" which is pretty cool. ps...can I say I would do ANYTHING for her luscious blond wavy locks of hair. So beautiful!
Anyways I was in a phase where I was listening to "White Horse" on repeat for an hour on end and I found what T-Swift herself said about the song on wikipedia:
"To me, “White Horse” is about what, in my opinion, is the most heart-breaking part of a break-up – that moment when you realize that all the dreams you had, all those visions you had of being with this person, all that disappears. Everything after that moment is moving on.. But that initial moment of "Wow, it's over" is what I wrote "White Horse" about."
Good stuff. Anyways, if you haven' t heard "Breakeven" yet (and you are a female...) you really should check it out.
Miss. B Smith over at MansionMogul sent me a link for this FAB-U-LOUS necklace made by truche:
I can't say how much I love love love love love love love love love this necklace! Truche will place the heart over whatever city you want too which makes it even more special!
Truche has a great store on etsy and I suggest you go check out her other states that she makes (if I had the money I would order one of Washington and Idaho!) and she also will do anything on request if she hasn't already made it! Her non-state/country pieces are beautiful as well and would make great gifts for friends and family!
As for me I am putting this gem (nice Idaho pun huh?) on my wishlist and am going to start thinking of an occasion that I can treat myself to it! Nothing like being able to wear something to show where my heart is!!
Thursday, February 18, 2010
1) I have been exhausted. Like crawl into bed and wake up in the same position exhausted.
2) Really swamped at work so (no offense to my readers) the last thing I have had a desire to do is come home and get on the computer again and write a post.
3) The Olympics are keeping my little spare time occupied.
I really don't have a lot going on right now. Like I said work has me pretty busy. And by busy I mean really busy. Which is good. And bad. And stressful. And fun.
Some news I do have is I finally attempted eggs benedict for myself on Valentine's day. Nothing like making one of my favorite foods and having it turn out fairly decent. There was a bit too much lemon used in my sauce, but overall I pulled it off nicely. Gold stars for me! I definitely suffer from the syndrome where if you cook/bake something it is no longer appetizing, so I am trying to overcome that.
My stomach is now rumbling for a fried egg.
Well back to work...yes...I am still at work...it is 7:52pm...gross.
Tuesday, February 16, 2010
Photo courtesy of BBC
Brooke and I wore our metalic skirts in honor of "Going for Gold"
photo courtesy of: Kurrs
I also got kind of curious about past Olympic medal designs. I must say the winter Olympic medals are SO much cooler. This website shows images of all the medals from Olympics past. I really like the Torino and Sapporo medals.
Vancouver's are really cool with the wave in the metal, but the print design on the front isn't my favorite.The designs are definitely improving over time. I mean I guess I wouldn't complain if I had ANY Olympic medal, so I should be too critical. But my vote is in and so far Torino has my vote!
Sunday, February 14, 2010
Wednesday, February 10, 2010
I am sure I am just 1/4 life crisising for like the 9 millionth time, but honestly I wonder.
And naturally that dark cloud of doubt that I made the right choice 4 years ago to switch my major to business was indeed the right choice. Or did I take the easy road?
Damn you doubt. Damn me for giving into the doubt.
Are we all supposed to feel fulfilled by our careers? I can't imagine that we are supposed to feel drained by them, but what if you never figure out exactly what you are supposed to do when you "grow up". How does one figure that out? I know what things I find attracting about a career and what interest me, but I have no idea what that looks like when you combine them all, and/or if there is even a job like what I envision when I mix all that together.
Long story short. I totally bummed myself out today and just kind of feel like I am floundering as far as a "career" goes. Time to start relinquishing some of that control I guess. Let's hope/pray for some clarity.
Monday, February 8, 2010
I am... thinking about the ones I love and have the lyrics "How Beautiful My Life Has Been" rolling through my head.
I was...very upset I had to go to work today when 99% of the population in DC got to have a day to enjoy the snow!
I want to be...in the short-term, enthusiastic about having to work again tomorrow and in the long-term a better communicator!
Alright people...time for some warm "fireside" from a distance warm fuzzies! Don't make me play the "tap someone you think has a beautiful smile game"
No Thank You:
• Men who weigh less than you or who have smaller feet
I like to be the cute little one...I will have no problem following this.
• Men who can’t dance (can be overlooked if they at least hold you close and sway to the music)
I don't care if they can dance, but I care if they refuse to dance.
• Men with a sense of entitlement
So like every guy in DC is ruled out by this one. Awesome.
• Philanderers who make no attempt to hide their infidelity .
• Pretentious playboys
Again, enough said.
• Men who take longer getting ready to go out than you do
Looking nice is one thing but if you are taking longer than me, it better because you are proposing that night.
• Men with keen minds (who aren’t intimidated by yours)
Definetly a yes, but also in the No category are men who think where they went to school and what they studied is all that matters in life. I am all about life experience.
• Men with a fabulous sense of humor (and not at the expense of others)
Can't be without this. Especially since to get to my serious side you have to laugh me there.
• Enthusiastic flatterers
I have a hard time accepting a compliment but I always like to hear them!
• Men who know how to wield a soup spoon (scoop outward)
Basically have some manners, open doors, get the car door for me, clean up your dishes, say Thank You, carry a girls bag, help a girl with her coat, and never give orders.
• Men who like your children
Let's substitute Poodle for Children. If the dog doesn't like you (or the nephew) you are out.
• Men who know quality (i.e., you) when they see it.
The guy who figures this out will be handsomly rewarded.
This is another one of her writings that I enjoyed reading.
Sunday, February 7, 2010
Saturday I woke up to the blanket of snow and an amazing display of snow on our clothes line that is outside my bedroom window. I met some friend for Brunch/Lunch and then spent the afternoon lounging, having a beer and staying warm. Did some baking last night and then snuggled in for a blissful sleep!
Tuesday, February 2, 2010
I am exhausted so I am signing off and headed to bed. Night all!